|Baptism of the Holy Ghost by Rebecca Borgan|
Thursday, October 16, 2014
My Baptism of Fire: A Farewell
They say timing is everything. After all there is a time to sleep, a time to eat, a time to laugh, a time to cry, a time to die… You get the picture. Timing. It’s everything. As of this writing it’s time I leave the Mormon Church. It’s much sooner than I had anticipated, but not at all unexpected, and not for the reasons you might think.
Picture it, November 2010; I’m browsing Amazon.com online looking for a good book to read. I started adding a few books to my watch list when I came across ‘The Second Comforter, Conversing with the Lord through the Veil’ by Denver Snuffer. Very softly the Spirit of God burned in my heart as I looked at its cover. The Spirit was very soft yet completely perceptible. I put the book on my wish list and moved on. Eight months later I’m back on Amazon completely forgetting the Spirit and prompting I had earlier received. “What are these books I put on my…” Oh… my heart sank as I remembered the previous encounter. I didn't fully ignore the Spirit because I had put the book in my watch list, yet mercifully I began again to feel the Burning of the Spirit of God. This time I bought the book.
It’s written for active participating Latter-day Saints or those returning to activity in the church. I won’t tell you what things the author of the book corrected in my mind. Or, to say it more precisely, the Spirit of God manifested to me that I was holding onto traditions of the church and not teachings or doctrine of Christ. My mind latched onto these concepts freely as if my soul recognized them from somewhere else… Two months later, September 27, 2011 I was baptized with Fire and the Holy Ghost in the Oakland Temple while surrounding the alter with people I've never seen before or since. This was exactly 34 years and 4 months to the day that I was baptized by water at the age of eight.
Last night at midnight I woke and sat straight up in bed. I had to get to my computer to research the significance of that September day. I didn't know why, I simply had to. Then the Spirit directed me to the lunar schedule. September 27, 2011 was a New Moon. A new beginning, a time to start over, that day I become a new creature in Christ! The importance of that symbolism is not lost on me. The Lord woke me up last night to confirm what He had done for me and He proved it to me using the Heavens!
Having hands placed upon your head and being confirmed a member of a church is not the Baptism of Fire. Being told to ‘Receive the Holy Ghost’ puts the burden upon you to receive Him. For me it happened after I correct false teaching that I held. These teachings and philosophies permeate the modern LDS Church. Those teachings are out of my mind and heart forever. Secondly, and more importantly, I qualified for the Baptism of Fire by having a broken heart and a contrite spirit (3 Nephi 9:19-20), and I might add, that is the only reason anyone ever receives the Baptism of Fire. Being lifted up in pride will prevent it.
How do you know if you have had the Baptism of Fire? It took me two years to fully realize what had happened to me that day. It is the single greatest experience of my life. I went back to the temple time and time again, each visit reminding the Lord that I was back and to please immerse me again in His Spirit. But it never came. I shared this experience in Sacrament meeting on my last Sunday with my Mormon ward. Not one soul asked me what it felt like.
Nephi reminds us that we must repent, be baptized by water and then be baptized by Fire and the Holy Ghost “For the gate by which ye should enter is repentance and baptism by water; and then cometh a remission of your sins by fire and by the Holy Ghost. And then are ye in this strait and narrow path which leads to eternal life; yea, ye have entered in by the gate”. (2 Nephi 31:17-18)
Did you get that! Only after you repent, are baptized by water and receive the Baptism of Fire are you on the path that leads to eternal life! Only then have you entered the gate that is guarded by the Holy One of Israel and He employs no servant there! The Lord God is His name and he cannot be deceived! (2 Nephi 9:41)
How often are you asked “what is the gate we enter?” “Baptism” is the reply! Wrong, wrong, wrong. The gate is repentance, baptism by water then Baptism by Fire! I believe few members of the Mormon Church ever receive the Baptism of Fire. Why do you suppose that is?
This is an event! It doesn't come incrementally, slowly over time. It is an event that is to happen in your life. It is necessary to your salvation. For me, it happened in the temple. It can happen anywhere.
My friends, with all the energy of my heart I ask you to repent and be brought low in the dust. Let your hearts be broken for the love that Christ has shown you. Let your spirits be contrite knowing there is no other way except in and through the Holy One of Israel. He is my Friend, my Savior and King. Let Him be yours too.
Why am I going down a different path from you my faithful Mormon friends? I have received the message of a True Messenger just as Father promised me I would in the day He created me. Jesus has given me the Baptism of Fire and He has placed my feet on His strait and narrow path. That same Spirit that has led me to receive His sanctifying love through Baptism by Fire now directs me in a new path. Leaving the Mormon Church is His doing and I will not disappoint Him.